“Music has been reported to evoke the full range of human emotion: from sad, nostalgic, and tense to happy, relaxed, calm, and joyous. Correspondingly, neuroimaging studies have shown that music can activate the brain areas typically associated with emotions: the deep brain structures that are part of the limbic system, like the amygdala and the hippocampus, as well as the pathways that transmit dopamine (for pleasure associated with music-listening). The relationship between music listening and the dopaminergic pathway is also behind the “chills” many people report experiencing during music listening. Chills are physiological sensations, like the hairs getting raised on your arm, and the experience of “shivers down your spine” that accompany intense, peak emotional experiences.” (http://syncproject.co/blog/2015/7/21/music-and-emotion, n.d.)

Beethoven, Mozart, Bach, Ravi Shankar, Madonna, Michael Jackson, the Beetles, and other great musicians have created works that transport us to realms of consciousness that mere words cannot. We know from neuroscience that music activates the brain areas associated with feelings, but the feelings that certain music evokes in us have a quality that is otherworldly and transcendental. There is magic in music.

Music that moves us has pattern and structure and movement and timing. “There is geometry in the humming of the strings; there is music in the spacing of the spheres.” — Pythagoras. “Counting, rhythm, scales, intervals, patterns, symbols, harmonies, time signatures, overtones, tone, pitch. The notations of composers and sounds made by musicians are connected to mathematics. The next time you hear or play classical, rock, folk, religious, ceremonial, jazz, opera, pop, or contemporary types of music, think of what mathematics and music have in common and how mathematics is used to create the music you enjoy.”[i]

Both music and mathematics are abstractions they cannot be objectified, yet they impact us in real ways. Their effect on us reveals aspects of ourselves that are non-physical and beyond the reach of our intellect; some call this our spiritual self or our soul. William James, the pioneering psychologist, and philosopher, describes this other aspect of our being thus “Our normal waking consciousness, rational consciousness as we call it, is but one special type of consciousness, whilst all about it, parted from it by the filmiest of screens, there lie potential forms of consciousness entirely different. We may go through life without suspecting their existence but apply the requisite stimulus, and at a touch, they are there in all their completeness, definite types of mentality which probably somewhere have their field of application and adaptation. No account of the universe in its totality can be final, leaving these other forms of consciousness quite disregarded. How to regard them is the question — for they are so discontinuous with ordinary consciousness. Yet they may determine attitudes though they cannot furnish formulas and open a region though they fail to give a map. At any rate, they forbid a premature closing of our accounts with reality.”[ii]

The effect that music has on us might be because music, in William James’ terms, is the “requisite stimulus” that connects us to this other consciousness that is so “discontinuous with ordinary consciousness.”

Lorenzo Candelaria[iii], professor of music history and literature at The University of Texas, writes

 “Painting, sculpture, and architecture might spur us toward holiness, but none can unite us quite like music. This is particularly true of singing — an art that invites group participation and can often arise spontaneously around a shared sentiment and a decent tune.”

Music plays a central communal role in every culture. Music is performed in churches, mosques and in temples because it entrains separate minds into producing a singular, powerful experience. A group of individuals becomes one. It becomes a spiritual experience for many.

“Without music, life would be a mistake,” Nietzsche on the Power of Music

Music is unique in its ability to entrain minds into producing a singular experience among all modes of expressing human feelings. The oneness of life that so eludes our senses can be experienced through music.

Music moves the soul.

[i] (American Mathematical Society, n.d.)

[ii] (Brain Pickings, n.d.)

[iii] (https://www.huffingtonpost.com/author/lorenzo-candelaria, n.d.)

Notice how “be love” becomes “be loved” or “beloved” by adding a single letter; it bespeaks the transformative power of love. Love yourself, and you are loved back. Once I understood and accepted myself, I became more accepting of others. I noticed that the more I loved myself (not narcissistically), the more loving I became. I projected love outwards, and it would return to me in kind.

I believe that self-love opens one up and makes room in the heart for others. I know that the hole in our being is filled when we embrace all of life. From an introverted nerd, I turned naturally and without effort into an extrovert. I attribute this transformation to my journey of self-discovery and self-love.

We are interconnected and interdependent. That is, all of life is a web of connections. We are connected to everything and everyone. These connections are invisible but can be felt. We feel the vibrations of others, hence the saying, I feel your vibe. Our emotions create a force field around us. This field attracts or repels others depending on the size of the hole in our being. The closer we are to our authentic selves, the more attractive the force field around us is. It draws others to us. It also affects others’ force fields. Likewise, others’ force fields affect us. I find myself being sucked into another person’s drama. Negative feelings toward others drain me, while positive attitudes of others uplift me.

I have come to believe that, in personal relationships, the invisible field that we create around us has a much greater impact than anything we say or do. We can mislead others by our words and deeds, but our vibrations reveal our true intentions. We cannot fake our vibrations; they are always authentic.

Communion happens when we are fully present to another. In relationships with others, we should be after communion, not communication. What most people want from us is not presents but our presence. When we are transparent within, we let others’ words and sentiments reach us without refracting them from our detritus. But first, we must get rid of the detritus in us, which is the point of self-discovery.

The more we know ourselves, the more transparent we become to others. The more transparent we are, the more open we are. The more open we are, the more life flows through us without resistance. What we resist persists.

Quantum Electro Dynamics, or QED, is the latest theory in quantum physics. It is a theory that elegantly combines Einstein’s theory with quantum mechanics. So, it is of great interest to physicists. But, I find one aspect of QED useful as a metaphor for thinking about life. The essence of QED is that all of nature is made of energetic fields. Low energy fields are forces, and high energy fields are matter. Many fields juxtapose and intersect to create different forms of matter. Each subatomic particle has fields associated with it. In QED, matter does not matter; the interaction of fields matters. The interaction between and among these fields can explain all of their existence. These fields are best visualized as a multidimensional matrix that waves, weaves, and wafts to create our reality. In both QED and Mahayana Buddhism, the interactions between phenomena are the reality, not the phenomena themselves.

I interpret all of this to mean that my physical body, which seems so substantial and real, might be a mental construct and the “real deal” are the interconnections. It is as if we are the spigot through which flow our energies. What affects the world around us is not the “spigot” –of our physical self but the invisible field that flows out of the spigot. The fields are the thoughts and emotions that flow out of us. If love flows out of us, then we create a field of love; if hatred flows out of us, we create hatred in the world.

When we change ourselves, we change our force field, which changes all force fields; that is, we change the world. Hence the saying attributed to Gandhi and Mark Twain, “be the change you want to see in the world.”

When we love ourselves unconditionally, the world loves us back. Loving ourselves unconditionally happens when we are whole inside. When we have fixed our broken parts. Love is a force field that flows from within us and affects others.

Be love. Be loved. Beloved.

My body is flooded
With the flame of Love.
My soul lives in
A furnace of bliss.

Love’s fragrance
Fills my mouth,
And fans through all things
With each outbreath. 

Kabir

Einstein is known to have said, “I want to know the mind of God.” Nobel laureate Leon Lederman in his book The God Particle, writes about the quest for the single equation in physics that would combine Einstein’s theory of relativity and quantum theory into a single unifying theory. This Theory of Everything is the holy grail of physics. Will we ever know the mind of God?

Let us examine what we already know about the human mind and its relation to the mind of God. We know that all of existence is a creation of our minds. It is as if our mind projects a movie that we mistake for reality. Our senses gather the material from which our mind creates our reality. This material is energy. Imagine, for a moment, that this energy is like jello, and our senses interact with this jello as it jiggles and wiggles, sending signals to the brain; our brain processes these signals and presents them to us as reality. But, this reality, for the most part, is not unique to us. It is a shared reality. The brains of the hundreds of billions of humans who have ever existed have created and recreated the same physical reality for all of humanity. When we see a tree, we all agree that it is a tree, we give it different names and have different associations with it, but we agree that it is a tree; this is true for all that exists. A rose by any other name is still a rose.

So, it seems, our brains are similarly wired for all humans. Every object or form in the universe has a corresponding pattern or representation in the human brain. This pattern is identical in all humans. It is this pattern that we recognize as our universe. We call this the objective universe because it is the same for all of us. The experience of this objective universe is different for each of us and hence subjective. We can all agree on what a rose looks like but usually have different opinions of its fragrance. The rose is objective, but the fragrance is subjective. The objective world has the same representation in each of our brains; it is almost as if there is a universal brain or mind- the mind of God.

According to physicists, all matter, energy, and forces were created fourteen billion years ago in what is known as the Big Bang. Everything that exists in the universe, including us humans, has evolved out of the Big Bang. Humans have a relatively recent history in the universe. Homo sapiens, the first modern humans, evolved from their hominid predecessors about 200,000 to 300,000 years ago. The three scientific theories that are the scaffolding for our understanding of the universe are Darwin’s Theory of Evolution, Einstein’s Theory of Relativity, and Quantum Theory. Darwin’s theory explains how from inert matter life evolved; Einstein’s Theory of Relativity explains space-time, energy, and matter and their interaction on a macro scale; the quantum theory explains the working of matter, energy, and forces at the smallest scale of subatomic particles. No single theory explains the macro world of planets and galaxies and the micro-world of quarks and leptons. Physicists are in search of the Theory of Everything or the mind of God.

Allow me to speculate why western science has been unable to know the mind of God and perhaps will never know it. My thesis is that western science has cleaved the universe into objective and subjective domains. The objective domain is, as previously described, the world that we perceive through our senses, that is, the world outside us; the subjective world is the world inside us. The mind of God does not make this distinction, I believe. There is only one in God’s mind: it is all that exists; there is no separation between the outside and the inside worlds. There can be no theory of everything until there is a theory of everything-the subjective and objective.

Vedic sages did not distinguish between the inside and the outside worlds; they came to a different understanding of Reality than the western scientists. Their view was that an individual could meld their mind with the mind of God; this is a radical view and easy to reject out of hand. Vedic practices of yoga and meditation are how ancient sages accomplished this union with God. In the west, we are only recently discovering the benefits of yoga and meditation; we have yet to realize the inherent potential in these practices.

We supplicate ourselves to God, praying that he would reveal himself. Sadly, most of us have not realized that praying to God to show up is the wrong approach. God is entreating us to open our minds and hearts to him. But we are too busy to heed God’s entreaties. We are lost in our thoughts. The way out is the way in.

Our senses and minds are preoccupied with the joys and the travails of daily life that we have little time to reflect on life itself. For many, survival is hard, and they do not have the luxury to step back and think deep thoughts. God for them is a hard taskmaster. For many others, life is about the pursuit of pleasure and fulfillment of desires. God for them is an intoxicant. We, except a very few, are trapped in our mind-created prison we call life. Most of us can’t conceive of a way out. The few who have found a way out are the enlightened ones. Religions are created around them, and scriptures are about their teachings.

Buddha and Jesus were two enlightened beings. Though they lived six centuries apart, not surprisingly, there is a similarity in their teachings. They both discovered the Truth that God is both immanent and transcendent; that is, God lives within us and is transcendent. They came from different regions and different times and used different languages to express this Truth. The core of their teachings is that there is a world beyond our senses that is richer and more beguiling than the world of our senses. To reach this world, we must detach ourselves from our sensual attachments and surrender to the will of God. As Buddha said, our attachments are the cause of our bondage, and forsaking our attachments will set us free, and the Bible echoes the call to surrender to the will of God “thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as in heaven.”

There is a world outside us and a world inside; both these worlds are accessed through our minds. One might say that they exist in our minds. The two worlds are separated by the sheerest of veils and yet are worlds apart. Most of us go through life without any knowledge of the world inside. This is what Socrates meant by an unexamined life; it is a life half lived. The sages, the mystics, and the enlightened beings have pierced this veil, experienced life beyond the veil. They are our messengers of what lies on the other side. These messengers have been separated in time and geography and by culture and language, yet their message is the same. They have described the beauty and the glory of a life lived “inside-out”; it is how one can create their own heaven on earth.

And, yet we are lost. We are lost in our thoughts. Our thoughts have created the veil behind which lies our “heaven.” All scriptures and wisdom traditions have lessons and practices handed down over centuries with a singular goal to open our eyes to the life behind the veil and to create our own “heaven on earth.”

It is possible and quite likely, in my opinion, that at this point, we are not evolved enough to know life in its fullness. We are evolving towards humanity that will manifest on earth the divinity within. This philosophy is known as evolutionary panentheism; it states that there is an immanent and transcendent divinity-the immanent divinity is the essence of all that exists but is beyond our ability, at this point, to detect through our senses or to know through our thoughts- and we are evolving towards humans who will manifest this divinity on earth. This might be the Rapture that many Christians believe in.

The Cosmic Dance

On dark summer nights, away from city lights, I love to stargaze and imagine that I am dancing with the stars. I pretend to be one of the Constellations-Orion or Perseus- and imagine myself dancing with the other stars. In this state of reverie, I feel the truth of astronomer Carl Sagan’s words “we are all made of stardust”.

According to the latest theories in physics, there are four fundamental forces in nature–gravity, electromagnetism, strong nuclear force and weak nuclear force. So, what is a force? A force is the interaction between particles. It is how particles interact or relate to one another. Positively charged particles (protons) attract negatively charged particles (electrons), but positively charged protons repel other positively charged particles and similarly electrons repel other electrons.

Gravity is an attractive force, it is weak relative to other forces and it acts over long distances. Gravity is the most familiar of forces, it is what keeps us from flying off the face of the earth, and is responsible for maintaining order in the universe, as it were. Gravity is what accounts for planetary motion. Einstein showed gravity is distortion of space-time caused by the mass of an object. The more massive an object the greater the distortion of space around it.

Electromagnetism works over infinite ranges in the macro world and at subatomic levels too. All charged particles in motion create an electromagnetic field (or exchange photons with other charged particles). Electromagnetic forces are what binds electron to a proton to form atoms. It is electrons which attract protons from a neighboring atom to form the force that keeps us from walking through walls or falling through our chair. Electromagnetic force is what gives us electricity and magnetism.

Gravity and electromagnetic forces are the ones we are familiar with in our daily lives. The other two forces–strong and weak nuclear forces–act at the subatomic level. Strong nuclear force keeps the nucleus of an atom together, that is, binds protons with neutrons. Weak nuclear force is responsible for nuclear decay.

Thus, it is these four forces of nature which regulate all interactions between matter. All phenomena in nature are the result of this cosmic dance between energized particles and the forces of gravity, electromagnetism, strong and weak nuclear forces

All that exists and all that happens in nature is explained by the interaction between matter and forces. All of scientific equations are mathematical representations or precise quantification of the action between particles and forces. Mathematical equations are the notations of the choreography of the cosmic dance. The choreographers are the physical laws of nature.

Life is a cosmic dance. It is as if every particle in nature is reaching out to every other particle and engaging in a beautiful cosmic dance.

Shiva’s dance!

The cosmic dance is not random motion but is beautifully choreographed and the movements obey laws of nature. The most fundamental laws of physics are the conservation laws–conservation of mass, conservation of energy and conservation of momentum. These laws control all movement, interactions and transformations in the universe. The laws are inviolate regardless of where in the universe one looks.

Nothing new in the universe has been created, since the Big Bang, but only transformed from one form to another. What appears as creation or destruction is only a transformation from one form to another in accordance with physical laws. The laws are fixed but the dancers and the dancing change. The dance never stops.

Since Newton, four hundred years of progress in science has led us to understand that our universe is not capricious or ruled by demons and monsters of nature, but instead it is an elegant universe governed by laws. Thanks to science we do not fear thunderstorms or cure diseases through exorcisms. We do not believe that the earth is flat or that we are at the center of the universe.

Science has unmasked nature to reveal that behind the many forms everything is alike. Every electron, proton or neutron is the same as every other electron, proton and neutron. All forms are made of the same building blocks which are connected and interact through forces. “We ourselves are a mere collection of fundamental particles of the universe” Stephen Hawking.^[i]
At a fundamental level (particles) there is no separation between us and what is outside of us. It only seems this way, because of the limitations of our senses. If we had X-ray vision, we would see that there is no separation between a chair and the person sitting on the chair.

“About 99 percent of your body is made up of atoms of hydrogen, carbon, nitrogen and oxygen. We also contain much smaller amounts of the other elements that are essential for life.

While most of the cells in your body regenerate every seven to 15 years, many of the particles that make up those cells have actually existed for millions of millennia. The hydrogen atoms in you were produced in the big bang, and the carbon, nitrogen and oxygen atoms were made in burning stars. The very heavy elements in you were made in exploding stars.

The size of an atom is governed by the average location of its electrons. Nuclei are around 100,000 times smaller than the atoms they’re housed in. If the nucleus were the size of a peanut, the atom would be about the size of a baseball stadium. If we lost all the dead space inside our atoms, we would each be able to fit into a particle of lead dust, and the entire human race would fit into the volume of a sugar cube.

⦗….⦘

As you might guess, these spaced-out particles make up only a tiny portion of your mass. The protons and neutrons inside of an atom’s nucleus are each made up of three quarks. The mass of the quarks, which comes from their interaction with the Higgs field, accounts for just a few percent of the mass of a proton or neutron. Gluons, carriers of the strong nuclear force that holds these quarks together, are completely massless.”

If our mass doesn’t come from these particles, where does it come from? Scientists believe that almost all of our body’s mass comes from the kinetic energy of the quarks and the binding energy of the gluons. We are not this solid, substantial looking mass, but instead we are empty space and particles in motion. In reality, instead of being made of flesh, muscles and bones, as our senses have us believe, we are primarily empty space and particles engaged in the cosmic dance. In this dance there is no separation between what is inside of us and what is outside. Our skin which separates us from the outside is itself particles interacting with particles on the outside, or dancing with the particles outside itself. The particles do not “know” what is inside and what is outside. It is only our senses that make the distinction between inside and out.”[ii]

We are entangled with everything around us in a cosmic tango. Every atom in every cell in our body is entangled with atoms in other bodies and objects in the universe.

The dance is fluid, the movement continuous, the partners (atoms) changing positions at every opportunity. The dance is endless and the music never stops.

When I look up at the sky and see the stars against a dark sky and imagine that my body is not solid as it appears, but, is full of “twinkling” atoms, buzzing around dancing in the vast empty space inside and outside of me, I am Nataraja the dancer.

My body is not separate from all that is outside it. It only seems so to my senses. I am entrained with everything around me in a cosmic dance. The ups and downs in my life are just the high and low notes of the song that I was born to dance to.

[i] (http://www.hawking.org.uk/, n.d.)

[ii] (https://www.symmetrymagazine.org/article/the-particle-physics-of-you, n.d.)

I started out an atheist and I now believe in God. Not a God that is in heaven but a God within me. Not a God of any religion but a presence within me. I do not believe in a divine being presiding over the affairs of man somewhere “out there”.  I now know that absolute truth is within me. I am the truth.

I am not my body. My body is made of matter, matter is made of atoms, which in turn are made of subatomic particles. According to quantum theory subatomic particles are not a “thing”, they are probability functions or waves, therefore our bodies are not solid or substantial. They only appear to our senses as such.

Neuroscientists such as Antonio Damasio and V.S. Ramachandran posit that the world we perceive including our body is a projection of our mind. Our senses gather information from the world outside us and transmit it as electrical signals to the brain and the brain converts those signals into objects that we see, touch and feel. The “objective” world is not objective at all, it is a reality constructed by our minds.

Prof. Damasio goes even further in his book, the Self Comes to Mind, in explaining how the “I”, our selfhood, is constructed in our mind. There is no cartesian “I” to be found in our brains, there is no homunculus in our brains. The “I” that we identify with is also a mental construct.

It gets curiouser and curiouser as Alice proclaimed in her adventure through Wonderland. I know that I exist, but Prof. Damasio’s work explains that “I” too am a figment of my imagination (mind). Who, then, is writing this sentence? Physics tells me that my body is nothing but emptiness, neuroscientists tell me that “I” and all that exists is a projection of my mind. But, I know that I exist. As Dr. Johnson, famously refuted, Bishop Berkeley’s views on Immaterialism by kicking a stone to make the point that he does exist.

The way out of this conundrum is the way in. Raman Maharishi, perhaps the greatest Indian sage of the twentieth century, believed that the path to self-realization is to seek the answer to “Who am I?”. The way in, is the way out of the illusion. As the Heart Sutra in Buddhism teaches “Gate, Gate, Paragate, Parasamgate”-one has to go deeper, deeper and deeper still to discover one’s truth. One’s truth, in Hinduism, is known as Dharma.

Each of us has an essence, that is unique to us. Our physical being is a manifestation of this essence. My essence is not a thing; it cannot be detected by our senses. It is pure consciousness. According to neuroscientist Donald Hoffman, at the University of California, Irvine, the building block of existence is consciousness. Each of us is a conscious-agent.  All that is there is consciousness. From consciousness arises our mind which in turn creates our reality.

Spirit, soul and atman are synonymous, in my world view, with the Truth in us, our Dharma, our essence, our true nature. It is who we are.  Even atheists have their Dharma.

Most of us go through life without discovering our true nature.  We identify almost exclusively with the physical and are not aware of our spiritual self. We are asleep to our own true selves. This is why, realizing our true nature is known as awakening.

“I searched for God and found only myself. I searched for myself and found only God”  ~ Rumi

“This piece of food cannot be eaten,

Nor this piece of wisdom found by looking.

There is a secret core in everyone not

even Gabriel can know by trying to know” ~ Rumi

Amen!